Welcome back to The Squirrelly Mom! I am so glad y’all keep coming back to join me and read about my nuttiness!
I wanted to share with you all some of my “mom”ments. You know those moments when you realize you are still a mom and it is real life, or that you realize all the frustration your kids cause is totally worth it, or those moments that you look at the tiny humans that are running your life and you have to then go pour a glass of wine… yea, those moments!
A few weekends ago the kids actually slept later than we did! How amazing is this? I think we actually slept until 6:30 AM! I felt like a new woman! After getting myself put together I went down to get the kids up. James looked so sweet laying there, so I decided to lay down and cuddle him. I usually don’t do this, so I knew the chances of him waking up were high, and I was right. However, he curled right up next to me and said “Mommy, I love you and I trust you”. This made me realize that not only am I raising a little boy to be a man or trying to teach him right from wrong, I must also make sure that he trusts me so that he knows it is ok to listen to me and follow my guidance. I pulled him a little closer, kissed him forehead and told him I loved him too. Then of course he was wide awake and cuddle time was done!
Brian and I always said we would not be those parents that let their kids entertain themselves with electronics when at the table out to eat. Well that quickly changed and we are those parents. I still very much hate this, but it makes dinner more enjoyable for all parties around us, so… we caved. I have grown to hate this even more now. My two-year-old has grown to think that my phone is her phone. The other night while I was fixing dinner I had pandora playing and was loving every song that came through the Bluetooth speaker. Then she came in, grabbed my phone and decided she wanted to color. I removed the phone from her tiny hands and reminded her that it is mommy’s phone and she was not going to play with it tonight. The biggest fit occurred. She laid out in the middle of the floor kicking and screaming for “her phone”. After a swift come to Jesus, off to time out she went and off to the bottle of wine I went. I needed to reflect on the little electronic monster that I had created. What is the line of keeping your kids current with all the technology and keeping them kids and making them use their imagination? Do kids even have those anymore? I think its time our family goes back to the basics and we will bring coloring books with us to dinner now!
This is the hardest one for me, and probably any other working mom. Morning drop offs at school or the sitters, or daycare… James is for the most part a very adaptable kid, really easy going and happy to just be included in what is going on. Blair is set in her little ways, wants things to go her way or how she thinks they should. The last 7-8 months have been some of the worst months with these kids and drop offs. They have been come clingy and begged me not to leave them, pleaded to just go home and cuddle. Well the other day topped all occasions that had previously occurred. Leading up to this morning I had been very emotional with a few family situations that were occurring and had cried the night before in front of the kids. I just couldn’t help it; the tears just feel out of my eyes like rain from the sky. I rarely cry in front of the kids because I know they pick up on it. Well that night the kids were really sweet and cuddly and wiped my tears away. The next morning, I saw an accident and watched as the paramedics preformed CPR. Of course, the water works started all over again. I pulled it together and took James into school. He clung to me like someone had put Gorilla Glue on his hands. He cried at every attempt of me trying to break away. It took two teachers to pull him off me as he continued to scream for me as I walked away. Ugh, my heart hurts just thinking about it! I have made it known from the beginning that I want to stay home with the kids, well there is was. The feeling had never been so strong. I hated leaving him. Blair did a similar act as I dropped her off at daycare and kept asking me on the way there If we could just go home and said she wanted to stay with mommy. Lots of essential oils got applied this day! Y’all, my kids are far from perfect and I get frustrated with them so often, but I love them with all I got. They are really my greatest accomplishment and for them to want me and need me so bad right now is breaking my heart! I know one day they will hate me, I will be the worst, and I won’t know anything. So, I will soak up every time they think I am the greatest right now, every time they want to cuddle or be held, and I will cry when I have to leave them on those rough mornings. These are the roughest “mom”ments for me right now.
What are your “mom”ments or “dad”ments? I know I can’t be the only one with these! 😊 Please share an experience that you have had like these! We are going through this nutty life together, lets embrace each other and support each other through this!