I am a Christian.
I have said this line so many times that it just became part of who I was, or who I was supposed to be. I was raised in and out of church and in a dysfunctional household, but we believed in God. As a child and young adult, I did not have a clear idea as to what it meant to be a real Christian. I thought I could sin and curse, ask for forgiveness and repeat and all would be well at the end of my time. I thought that I could gossip and speak out of line and I would be forgiven. I had strong believers tell me otherwise, but I thought that they had a skewed perception of faith and what it was to be a Christian.
I have briefly talked about my journey to deepening my relationship with the Lord, but I think it is important for you to know things that I have changed In this process. Some of these things are still an adjustment for me because I am not perfect! Some of this change just happened without me consciously trying. I think it is so incredible the power the Lord has on us and the things He is willing to give us as we start walking with Him.
I used to LOVE Keeping Up with the Kardashians. Now, I can’t even bring myself to read an article about them. I found myself dreaming of what it would be like to be them, having all the money, the attention, maids, etc. I found myself judging their outfits, the houses, the cars (out of jealousy). Then as this relationship with Christ grew, I discovered I was sinning. I was lusting over someone else’s possessions, lifestyle, and money! I had set unrealistic expectations for what I wanted for my life and was not listening to what God wanted for my life. This was a slow realization. I lost interest in watching my previously favorite show or reading about them. Things started to slowly change and before I knew it, I was more content with my life and I was happier because I was not comparing myself to someone else. Now, don’t get me wrong, I still watch reality TV like Married at First Sight! This show always gives my husband and I something to talk about within our own marriage so it’s like free counseling!
“You shall not make idols for yourselves or erect an image or pillar, and you shall not set up a figured stone in your land to bow down to it, for I am the Lord your God”.
“But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth”.
This one is so hard. Not that I love talking about people but because I care so much about people, I start telling their business so that others can care about them without realizing that I am out of line. I have had to really work on this one and be aware about what I am saying. Am I really asking for someone to pray for them or looking for someone to talk about them with me? I have learned that I can ask for prayers for a friend and not have to tell why and people are really okay with not knowing! Me, I really like to know specific things to pray for. With this I am finding that I don’t even need to know because God already does. It is crazy how much relief is lifted when you realize it is not your job to make sure everyone knows what to pray for or why you are asking for prayers. It is their story to tell. I give thanks to a lady in my small group for being very aware of this and making me aware!
“To speak evil of no one, to avoid quarreling, to be gentle, and to show perfect courtesy toward all people”.
“But avoid irreverent babble, for it will lead people into more and more ungodliness…”
2 Timothy 2:16
Praying has become a huge part of my life. I used to pray when it was convenient for me or when I just wanted something from God. Kind of like a teenage kid who only talks to their parents when they want money. I had that relationship with God. I changed the way I pray too. I stopped asking for things I want or thought I needed and started praying for God to show me to the path HE wanted to me go on. I prayed for him to provide me with what HE thought I needed. I prayed for him to give me the strength and courage to do those things and for me to have the faith that God is with me and helping me every step of the way. The blessings have been tenfold. He has placed people in my life that have been huge supporters, great friends, and strong Christians as well. He has blessed me with helping my business to grow and for me to be more at peace with my current fulltime job. When I put my faith and trust into Him, things seemed to fall in to place better. I stopped working against his plans trying to make mine happen. I will never stop being amazed at the power of Christ and his works!
“The hopes of the godly result in happiness, But the expectations of the wicked come to nothing”.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God”.
So, while these are some small things that I have done or changed during this relationship building process, I encourage you to find one area in your life that you could change. Make it small, manageable and ask for Gods help with it! What would it be? Would you like someone to pray for you? I would love to be that person! Email me or comment below, you don’t have to give details I promise! Share this with a friend that you think may need some prayer, have them reach out to me. I know how powerful prayer is. Lets’ start praying for each other!
Next week I will tell you how changing my mindset has helped me to overcome many struggles and helped not only my relationship with God but with my husband, my kids and other family and friends!
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